February 9th, 2012 09:22 AM #1Junior Member
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I Don't Know Who I Am!
When I was about 12 years old, I was misdiagnosed withepilepsy and put on very high doses of medication for more than 20 years. This was at my motherís request because shetold the doctor she kept seeing my arms and legs jerking when I was sleepingand she made her own diagnoses that these were seizures. She had some influence over a doctor and gothim to put me on epilepsy medication even though the neurologist said there wasnothing wrong with me other than, perhaps, my body adjusting to puberty. My mother claims to have been a nurse beforeshe was married and liked to give people medical advice.
I was a happy, gregarious and extroverted child until I wasput on this medication. Within months, Iturned into a sort of zombie and became completely introverted and my parentskept me socially isolated for the rest of my teenage years and earlyadulthood. On a daily basis, my mothertold me I would never have any friends, never be able to take care of myselfand never have a proper job. I refusedto listen to her and put myself through university twice and I now have 2degrees and various advanced qualifications. I stopped taking all medication at the age of 34, after seeing aneurologist who told me I never had epilepsy and should never have been put onmedication. Now that the medication isout of my system, my extroverted personality has come back and I donít knowwhat to do with myself. I have nofriends and because I was kept isolated from the age of 12, I never learnedproper social skills. I am very lonelynow and desperately want lots of friends and to be surrounded by people, but Idonít know how to do this anymore. It islike I have woken up from a terrible nightmare that started at the age of 12and I donít have any idea who I am and was never allowed to develop apersonality. I cannot get help as nobodyseems to understand what is wrong with me because it is so complicated. I am at a loss as to what to do and am havingterrible anxiety and depression.
February 18th, 2012 05:22 AM #2Junior Member
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Re: I Don't Know Who I Am!
First step would be to find a forum wher you "chat" with many people at once. The forum we are using right now is very limited since very few use it. Just Google open chat forums or something similar. Also if you use Windows join the approriate forums for that and ask questions about Windows, just to get conversations going.
Sign up for the local "Lonely Heats Club" in your area, it will be an evening of may awkward indiviuals sharing details about their lives and making friends in the process.
Go to see a psychologist and explain your situation. I'm sure he/she will have a multitude od suggestions to help you out.
There are ALWAYS people willng to help, just sum up a little courage and ask for it.